ANGRY CHALK
MARCH 11, 2012 "we live in illusion and the appearance of things there is a reality we are reality and when you understand this... you will see you are nothing and being nothing you are everything that is all." For some reason I clung to her like a leech. When she would leave the house, to run an errand I would be incredibly afraid. I have been bound to the roots of lesbianism- an ingrained response to past events and emotions which have led me to the current attitudes and reactions. I’ve wondered for many years whether words, actions or genetic environmental factors are responsible for my addiction and homosexual lifestyle. The truth is I want to blame my mistakes on someone or something, instead of owning up to my destructive behavior. I know all about my family’s history, my grandfather is an alcoholic... that is the extent of it, end of story. I was not exposed to drugs or alcohol and my parents weren’t the kind of parents who had cocktail parties and drank themselves...