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08/23/2018 “Remember. Love doesn’t make the world go round. Sex makes it spin for a second. If you’re lucky. So do chips, sausage rolls and girls in short skirts. Remember. Love. Lays its fingers on you and holds it. Underwater. Remember that when the next girl smiles at you.” What is wrong with me? My thoughts, my dissatisfaction in literally everything. I’m bored. I get paid and I literally do nothing all day. Larry, my boss, refers to me as a “power house”. Why? I do not ever deliver, I am never on time to anything. I have not really contributed. I’m annoyed. Shut down. Celeste told me she wants to do “something” with her body tonight, implying sex. She takes a long bath, I play the piano waiting to cuddle on the couch. Excited. Anticipating. She walks into the hallway, announcing it's already 9:00pm. I stop playing the piano and sit on the couch. I ask, “are you going to come sit with me?” She calls back at me, “I’m in bed, I have to sleep, it's late and someo...