destroy yourself

11/04/2010

“And maybe the problem was that there wasn't a problem, and I was just so not used to that, my brain was trying to make one for me. Fuck you, brain.”

While it had taken years for scientists years to figure out the synthesis, neurological and physical effects of ephedrine, it took me 24 hours of intense research and gathering up products to synthesize a batch of methamphetamine. Trial and error, well of course, wasn't that organic chemistry? I avoided using google search engine, and the top search results. I didn't use youtube videos, basically anything the government could tweak or edit. I stuck to the organizations, chemistry books and scholarly journals. The government exaggerated the hazardous chemical procedure with pictures of dirty meth labs and dramatic explosions.

I am not saying one shouldn't use lab safety precautions or that its not a hazardous process, I can recall a couple of phosphorus fires almost ending in a "kaboom." Heating and pressuring solvents and chemicals can be volatile, BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT its not nearly as complex as they make it seem.

An ideal business for a recent graduate student who had studied Pharmacokinetics. I had signed a contract with Chemika Lab in India. Chemika fermented pure ephedrine for large pharmaceutical corporations. The majority of the business sold Sudaphed products. I felt proud, gratification, I landed such a high paying position, Director of Research and Development, working to ferment a purer form of ephedrine. 

That's only the beginning of it...