feel me

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11/27/25



“Respect other people's feelings. It might mean nothing to you, but it could mean everything to them.”

Happiness is healing with someone who understands you without needing words. Everything starts with how we feel. It's the birthplace of change.


So, how do I feel? Right now, at this moment, how do I feel?


"Okay" is not a feeling, and neither is "meh."


Close your eyes. Breathe, In and out. Slowly.


I grew up always pulling from logic instead of emotions. I became reactive rather than responsive. I suppressed and ignored instead of addressing and releasing. This is how we survive.


Can you imagine how different my life would have been if I known this 20 years ago? And I would have addressed my father for raping and molesting me? Well, fear got in the way and I never did. So, instead of healing from my emotional scars, I've just covered them up, with Band-Aids made of "should have" and shame. I turned my emotional faucet off and started to concern myself with other people's feelings instead of my own. I lost myself a long time ago because this continues to be a pattern I cannot break. So, over time, myself expression muscles just have become weaker and weaker. And I wonder why all of my relationships don't work, and are so difficult. People say they don't feel connected to me. I struggle with intimacy.


My inability to express my state is what has turned me so colorless, gray. I want to grow and live up to my potential. So my therapist told me, the best place to start is simply how we feel.


So let me ask you that again...


HOW DO YOU FEEL?

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